February 22, 2021


Bright even in the dark!

I consider myself to be a confident person, but every here and there I do question a few things about my life. From my relationships with the people around me, my physical and mental health, to my career path. This moment is what a call, self-dilemma. 

I'm pretty sure we all have those moments in life where we stop for a second and ask ourselves, what am I doing? And question everything that is happening around us. For me, I feel like I find myself in this dilemma every six months. Not going to lie, I have been somewhat privileged to be where I am, and even though it hasn't been all colorful maintaining those privileges and work towards major goals. I really do question if the things I'm doing are really good for me. 

In the last three years, I have noticed a lot of differences in myself. From expressing myself even when I'm not feeling my best, to even thinking of things before doing them and so on. But yet, for some reason, I find myself feeling almost the same after a while, making me feel like I need to make constant changes. We are human beings, I know we aren't perfect and we are contently learning new things but is the person that I'm becoming even the person I want to be? From past experiences, I have been told my life is too much, the things I want aren't realistic, and that somehow I need to be better. But better for what? Or should I say, better for who? 

Ever since I started taking care of myself, I told myself that I want to do what makes me happy. What feels like the right thing to do. And that has been my mindset and focus, but now it has come to a point where I feel like I need to apologize for my success instead of enjoying it. Apologize for the things I do from the heart because they seem too much, and apologize just for being me. 

Till I figure out the answers to all those questions and deal with this self-dilemma. I want to maintain positive vibes by wearing bright colors. For this editorial, I'm partnering with Express to bring you this classic denim look to which is a great representation of myself currently. Feeling like I'm walking in someone else shoes. 

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